I love beautiful doors. One of my favorite things to do when we lived near Santa Fe, New Mexico, was to photograph doors of houses and gates in town. They were bright, beautiful, and inviting. One of our favorite stores had a large room lined with massive, imported, wooden doors. I will probably never live in a house with one of these beautiful doors. (In the current state of our economy, I’m actually grateful to just own a home with a door. It’s red. And, it’s mine.)
You know, though, one thing about doors is that you often can’t see the beauty in them unless they are closed.
Recently I really believed God had opened a beautiful door for me to walk through. That beautiful door didn’t stay open. He clearly told me to shut it myself and walk away. That was tough. A seemingly beautifully crafted door opened just to be closed.
Here’s a few things I’ve learned about closed doors.
Closed doors open the door to disappointment. I think that’s okay. I was extremely disappointed this opportunity didn’t work out. I spent weeks thinking, planning, and playing out scenarios in my head of how things “could be.” Disappointment is a natural reaction when things don’t go as you had planned. The problem comes when you dwell on the disappointment and can’t see past the closed door.
Closed doors open the door to doubt. A few years ago, the camp I poured my heart and soul into closed its doors. I was devastated. Though I knew the decision was much greater than me and my abilities, I began to doubt myself. Was I not good enough? Did I not try hard enough? Was there someone who could have done it better? My self-esteem was shot. And, to be honest, it’s taken a long time to get that back. It still creeps its ugly head up every once in a while, especially when doors open and close before my eyes.
Closed doors open the door to dependence. Dependence not on yourself but on the One who has the perfect plan in store for you. I don’t believe God is a God who makes it His work to test and challenge us. I do, however, believe God wants to know if we will be faithful with a little before He tasks us with more (Luke 16:10). I honestly believe God wanted to see if I would be obedient in seeking out the door He placed in front of me, as well as obedient in seeing this wasn’t the path for me. I trust God. He hasn’t failed me yet. I fully depend on Him to open the right doors in the future.
Closed doors open the door to discovery. I don’t like the unknown. I want to know all of the details, all of the “what-ifs.” That’s not the life we are called to live, however. We don’t know what tomorrow holds. The joy is in the discovery … seeking God’s will, asking Him to reveal to you the right path at the right time.
Sometimes, you can’t see the beauty and intricacies of the Creator’s design until the door is closed.